Your Hope Never Left You
As I was journaling this morning, it occurred to me…
You are not the stories of your past. You were meant to be loved, to feel love, to receive love, to give love, to be love, to be one with love.
To feel accepted.
To feel affection.
To be open and accepting.
Love is the greatest power in the universe. Love is what will get you to where you want to go.
But first — you must learn to love yourself.
Honestly. Openly. Completely.
We spend so much time and energy trying to get others to love and accept us because we feel empty and alone and not safe.
It is easier to try and focus on someone else than it is ourselves.
Why is that?
Why are we so okay with treating ourselves like complete shit and then turn around and give all that love to someone else — focusing on them and their shit and how we might be able to fix them because that makes us feel good, right?
Like we actually did something with our life — here, I fixed you. Now, where’s my participation trophy? (yeah, I had to go there)
But that’s bullshit
But that’s bullshit. Complete and total bullshit!
No matter how hard you try – you can’t fix anyone. Not me, not your mom, not your partner, not your dog.
Because it’s not your job to fix me (figuratively speaking here). It’s not up to you.
It’s just not up to you.
And how do you even know I want to be fixed? Sorry love, but that’s not how the universe works. That’s not how alignment works. That’s not how flow works. That’s not how karma works. That’s just not how it works.
You have one mission in this lifetime. One mission alone.
To work on your own shit. Stay in your own lane. Stay on your side of the street.
Fixing me will not fix you.
And do you even really want to be fixed anyway?
Are you broken? An object that someone just threw away?
You are a powerful being. You are a beautiful soul. You are an amazing partner, friend, parent, child, member of society, your community and the world needs you.
Not to be fixed, for you were never broken.
You are wounded. You are scared. You are tormented by your past – but you are never broken.
You have a light to shine on this world, if only you will allow yourself to be.
You cannot be fixed. You cannot be thrown away. You were divinely created and put here on purpose.
You have gone through what you have gone through for a reason. There is healing ready and waiting for you. There is a new life just on the other side of this.
If only you will be open.
Will you be open?
To being led
To being guided
To being loved
To give love freely
My love, you are powerful beyond measure. Isn’t it time you owned that? Isn’t it time you stepped out of the shadows? Isn’t it time you faced your darkest moments so you can allow healing to enter your life? Isn’t it time you opened up to change?
Is this the way you want to live and feel forever? Is this the legacy you want to leave your children, mama?
Are you so removed from hope that you feel as though you are already dead inside?
Me too. I was there. Really, not that long ago.
I was exactly where you are at right now. Stuck in my grief. Stuck in life. Stuck in a cycle of emotional warfare on myself.
Until I couldn’t anymore. Until a seed was planted in the barren depths of my soul. And it started to grow. A teeny tiny little sprout — LIFE.
And now I have grown. I have flourished. I have rebuilt myself from the ashes.
And so can you.
I know it
I feel it
I live it
I breathe it
Your hope never left you
If only you will see that there is still hope. Because hope never dies. Your hope never left you.
It’s sitting there, waiting for you to release. Waiting for you to free yourself.
Will you allow hope to visit you again?
Will you allow hope to wrap its warm light around you?
Keep you safe
Will you allow yourself to feel? Once again?
I am here for you. I am holding space for you. I will meet you where you are at and show you that you CAN live a different life — but only if you want it. Only if you desire it. Only if you crave it. Only if your heart is begging for it.
And also… only if you’re willing to do the work.
Becuase we are never ready.
We just choose. And then we do. And we become free.
From my soul to yours — I love you.